I finally did not cry yesterday.. After crying continuously every day and every night, kinda tired. Drank less than half a can of tiger beer classic. It's so disgusting.. Threw the rest away.. And faster went to sleep, a bit miserable but at least that's the best night I've slept after we're over..
Want to sms her every day, but I don't think it will help, it might even b worse. Maybe I will sms her after IT show? Just hope there are things I can talk to her about and hope she does not avoid me. What I am afraid is to see her and him being so sweet. Whatever, don't think so much now.. Just focus on my lifee.. Hope I can..