I've never cried so much that I dun feel like stopping... I've never felt tha life could be torturing... Now that they are some restrictions.. Esp from family... I suddenly feel so 'stretched'.. STUDY! UT! Her! Work! Poly life! w/o upsetting anyone... w/o making my family do any actions coz of tiz... IM DYING! U think i'm superwoman arhs? For goodness sake, I dun have a cape. I dunno how to divide myself to do all these kinda things... I dun wanna stop working coz I wanna c her more often. Now that I'm forced to stop working, I must turn it to studying... Get gd grades and SHUT THEIR MOUTHS! I know v clearly wad I'm doing... I DON'T NEED ANYBODY TO DECIDE MY PATH! I AM ME AND I WILL DO WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT! I know ppl will be worried... But when my decision is final, IT'S FINAL! ENOUGH CRYING GOD DAMN IT! CRY CRY CRY... CRY PI AR! _l_