today i'm very happy ... i'll keep it in my heart ... but i wonder if i'm ready for it ... i like the life i'm living now .. Am i thinking too much .. wad ish this ?? fantasy or reality ?? here am i wondering & confused ... wad am i feeling now ?? ish this my real feeling that ish confirmed & real ?? or ish this a few minutes kinda thing ?? ish this feeling unreal ?? am i making things complicated ?? everyone ish saying this & that ... i totally agree ... but wads holding miie back ?? i haven't found out an answer ... should i give an answer now or later ?? but how long would that be when i've figured it out ?? I'VE GOT THIS V BIG PROBLEM .. WHO IN THIS WORLD COULD HELP MIIE ?? or ish this kinda thing can onli be solved by miie myself w/o the help of others ??